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Ineffable Desire

by Ella Blame

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1.
Fast Life 02:33
Living fast Makes life so easy But may shorten it, chum, stay alive! Chum, stay alive! Chum, stay alive! You're running down the road of life. You never see what's left and right, Above and below you, nor inside. Chasing yourself makes you forget The harm been done to you when you Have still been an innocent child. You think living fast is the kick That you need to survive this trick. Although you banned drugs from your life, You're a junkie, a man in need. The car shoots over the highway, The radio plays awful noise, Hunting to still another date, The trunk overloaded with toys. Through the windshield, you see your wife, Your children you almost forgot, The car slips and begins rolling, That's the end of a real, end of a real, End of a real, End of a real, End of a real, End of a real fast life.
2.
Remember, yeah, yeah, yeah, remember! Remember when I said "Don't touch me!", You know that's like dangerous torture. Remember, I said "Don't come close to me!" Because I can't stand it, that's for sure. I want to embrace you, want to feel you very close. This will never end, it's a never-ending pain that I chose. It's like a curse. I can't calm down Although I feel paralyzed, paralyzed. I'm looking for the right way out, Still not knowing if I want to find it. The tears in my suffering eyes Are like a little fire. And the bulging pain in my stomach Makes me feel an ineffable desire. It's like a curse. I can't calm down Although I feel paralyzed, paralyzed. It's like a curse. I can't calm down Although I feel paralyzed, paralyzed. Please, please, please let me be free! Let me be free!
3.
I forgave you and I know You forgave me, too. We had much time to think about, And I know it's true That I do love you. We are not perfect Although we really try. We believed not to be Strong enough to Live without a lie. Come, come, come home to me. Come, come, come home to see. Come, come, come home to me. Come, come, come home to see How things have changed, How things have changed. We are just human beings And should give our best Not to destroy our feelings Because what'll be the rest We would leave over? I'll try not to hide myself Behind my second face And I hope you'll beside me. There is a lot of space For all the two of us. Come, come, come home to me. Come, come, come home to see. Come, come, come home to me. Come, come, come home to see How things have changed, How things have changed. Come, come, come home to me. Come, come, come home to see. Come, come, come home to me. Come, come, come home to see How things have changed, How things have changed, How things have changed. Come, come, come home to me. Come, come, come home to see. Come, come, come home to me, To me, to me, to me, To see, to see, To me.
4.
It's an amazing maze In which you'll lose your mind. When you risk a gaze You leave your future behind. You found your way in. Now you wriggle and writhe, Your head starts to spin. My thoughts control your life. Your synapses snap - Balance error in your brain. The spinning speeds up Until you swoosh away, You swoosh away, you swoosh away. You'd like to worm your way into my brain, But once you're inside you won't get out again. You'd like to worm your way into my brain, But once you're inside you won't get out again, Get out again, get out again. It's an amazing maze, it's an amazing maze, It's an amazing maze, it's an amazing maze. Thought control, thought control, Thought control, thought control. It's an amazing maze In which you'll lose your mind. When you risk a gaze You leave your future behind. You found your way in. Now you wriggle and writhe, Your head starts to spin. My thoughts control your life. Your synapses snap - Balance error in your brain. The spinning speeds up Until you swoosh away, You swoosh away, you swoosh away. You'd like to worm your way into my brain, But once you're inside you won't get out again. You'd like to worm your way into my brain, But once you're inside you won't get out again, You won't get out again. It's an amazing maze In which you'll lose your mind. When you risk a gaze You leave your future behind. You found your way in. Now you wriggle and writhe, Your head starts to spin. My thoughts control your life.
5.
I can't sleep, 'cause you've killed my soul. To feel this pain Was never my goal. My heart is beating As fast as it can. Cannot believe That you're not the right man. Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling, Killing me bit for bit. Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling ... I never planned To fall in love with you, guy. I never thought That it was only a lie. I remember your eyes When they were looking into mine. It's not long ago, I can still see them shine. Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling, Killing me bit for bit. Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling ... There is this feeling, There is this feeling, feeling, Feeling, feeling, feeling, There is this feeling ... I can't sleep, 'cause you've killed my soul. To feel this pain Was never my goal. My heart is beating As fast as it can. Cannot believe That you're not the right man. I never planned To fall in love with you, guy. I never thought That it was only a lie. I remember your eyes When they were looking into mine. It's not long ago, I can still see them shine. I can still see them shine.
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7.
Come with me! There's only this chance left. Come with me! There's only this chance left. Forget everything (Come with me!) And come with me! Come with me, I'll show you a world That you don't know yet. Come with me, what you'll experience there, You won't ever forget. Maybe, you're afraid of crossing the border. I tell you, it won't hurt. Forget everything and come with me. There's only this chance left. I can't help you with your decision. I'll still give you some time, Time until this song has come to an end, Come to an end. Time until this song has come to an end, Come to an end. I can't help you with your decision. I'll still give you some time, Time until this song has come to an end.
8.
Another Side 04:35
Let's go over to another side, Where love is all around. Let's go over to another side, Just follow this sound. Let's go over to another side, Where death is no fear. Let's go over to another side, Just take my hand, I'm near. I hear you coming, Let's go through the night! I hear you humming, Is everything alright? I hear you coming, Never forget your goal! I hear you humming, Let's heal your atrophied soul! Let's go over to another side, Where love is all around. Let's go over to another side, Just follow this sound. Let's go over to another side, Where death is no fear. Let's go over to another side, Just take my hand, I'm near. I hear you coming, Let's go through the night! I hear you humming, Is everything alright? I hear you coming, Never forget your goal! I hear you humming, Let's heal your atrophied soul!
9.
Swamp of lead, It doesn't matter. Swamp of lead, It doesn't matter. Swamp of lead, It doesn't matter. Swamp of lead. It doesn't matter, If you're here, if you're there. It doesn't matter, It's something I can't bear. It doesn't matter, How far away you are. It doesn't matter, How near or how far. I miss you, forget you, Adore you, despise you, I yearn for you and push you away, I call for you but you don't say A word, a word, a word, A word, a word. I can't go back And I can't go ahead. It's like sticking In a swamp of lead. I have to tell the truth, But I don't know how. I know that I have to choose, But I don't want to do it now, To do it now, to do it now, To do it now. I miss you, forget you, Adore you, despise you, I yearn for you and push you away, I call for you but you don't say A word. I miss you, forget you, Adore you, despise you, I yearn for you and push you away, I call for you but you don't say A word, a word, a word, A word. I can't go back And I can't go ahead. It's like sticking In a swamp of lead. I miss you, forget you, Adore you, despise you.
10.
I want to scream to break the chain But I can't do it at this moment. I want to shout out all the pain But suddenly I'm only silent. These restless hours are not ending, This silence is so violent. My feelings always are contending, Is this the beginning or the end? Then I'm revolving fast and faster But everything remains the same, Stretch out my hands to avoid disaster But there's nobody to reach for them. I'm hitting and pressing against the wall But nothing moves, really, nothing at all. I'm stomping on the floor in total desperation, My prison is everywhere, is this my creation? Creation ... I want to scream to break the chain But I can't do it at this moment. I want to shout out all the pain But suddenly I'm only silent. Silent, silent, silent, silent, silent ... I hang on to myself and feel no more pain, Forget to breathe and lose my surrounding, But something takes breath and I find a lane To create a new way, and that's a beginning. Then I'm revolving fast and faster But everything remains the same, Stretch out my hands to avoid disaster But there's nobody to reach for them. I'm hitting and pressing against the wall But nothing moves, really, nothing at all. I'm stomping on the floor in total desperation, My prison is everywhere, is this my creation? I hang on to myself and feel no more pain, Forget to breathe and lose my surrounding, But something takes breath and I find a lane To create a new way, and that's a beginning. Mhmh, and that's a beginning. Mhmh, and that's a beginning. Mhmh ...
11.
Last night I woke up Covered with sweat. Because I had a dream That made me feel bad. I want to tell you the story Because you were part of it. I dreamed my death that wasn't gory, It wasn't painful, just a soft hit. Everywhere was anywhere And I didn't understand the elsewhere. A lot of people were around me But you were the one whom I couldn't see. Everything began to turn around, Too much for me, so I was driven into the ground. Ground. Ground. It seemed to be a waiting room To the next existence travel. And my sadness was one thought: I could forget you on the next level. So I woke up, fearsomely crying, And I wished, and I wished, and I wished You were lying in my bed. Last night I woke up Covered with sweat. Because I had a dream That made me feel bad. I want to tell you the story Because you were part of it. I dreamed my death that wasn't gory, It wasn't painful, just a soft hit. Everywhere was anywhere And I didn't understand the elsewhere. A lot of people were around me But you were the one whom I couldn't see. Everything began to turn around, Too much for me, so I was driven into the ground. Ground. Ground. All over, I felt brightness and softness, Only sadness remained and I felt aimless. It seemed to be a waiting room To the next existence travel. And my sadness was one thought: I could forget you on the next level. So I woke up, fearsomely crying, And I wished, and I wished, and I wished You were lying in my bed.
12.
So Special 05:09
Lover, come close to me, I wanna feel you and touch you all over. This will be so special, we'll be free, Forever, my sweet love, we will hover. I feel your breath, I smell your smell, My lips and your lips don't miss their aim. I feel your hands with every cell Of my body, hear you whisper my name. Let's love, let's feel, Let's move, let's cry, Let's dream, make it real, Let's breathe, let's die! Let's love, let's feel, Let's move, let's cry, Let's dream, make it real, Let's breathe, let's die! I'm trembling, can't stand to wait any longer, You're moving so slowly, I hold my breath. Your and my body so close together, Oh, nothing will stop us besides our death. I'm losing control and so do you. Only rhythm and breathing and heat. Let's cry out now and never feel blue, Never wake up because this dream is so sweet. Let's love, let's feel, Let's move, let's cry, Let's dream, make it real, Let's breathe, let's die! Let's love, let's feel, Let's move, let's cry, Let's dream, make it real, Let's breathe, let's die!

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This CD should have a warning label: "May induce a state of altered consciousness with distorted perceptions of space and time. Do not drive or operate machinery while listening to this music." Ella Blame's Ineffable Desire grabs you by the synapses and delivers an endless stream of audio stimuli that completely dominate your attention. This is music you don't simply listen to - you experience it... Ella Blame is innovative, perhaps ahead of her time. But the day will come when this music is the pop music of a new generation, and Ineffable Desire will likely be held up as the seminal album of the genre. -- Kenny Hart, Indie-Music

... Ineffable Desire, though, is full of blood and soul. And madness. Off-kilter, 4:00 A.M. raw, dark-night-of-the-soul madness. The CD cover with an outlandish ray of light beaming out of one of Ella's eyes conveys all of this... Her voice, the heart and soul of the record, is the first thing that boggles the mind. Many of the songs have her voice covering almost her full range (she covers low middle and high registers with bull's-eye accuracy). The madness comes from fear, confronting death, life intensity, longing itself, frustrated desire. Ineffable desire... You have been warned. -- Mark Kirby, MusicDish

… Then, in the frenetic "Thought Control" and the experimental "Another Side," both with music by guest collaborator Shinji Imai, Blame shows off the baritone end of her huge range, along with her hisses and moans and piercing high notes. She unveils a fluttery soprano for the spooky, deceptively simple ballad "I Can't Sleep." In fact, it wouldn't be too much of an exaggeration to say that Blame's voice is to a normal person's voice as Robert Patrick's shape-shifting Terminator was to the stolidly anthropomorphic Schwartzenegger model... -- Jon Sobel, BlogCritics

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released September 22, 2004

Album Credits: Ella Blame, Shinji Imai, Michael D. Temple, Kilian Thöns, Norman Friedenberger, T.C., Karin Hell

Mixed and mastered by Ella Blame and Michael D. Temple ("How Things Have Changed" and "So Special")

Produced by Ella Blame

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To date, Ella Blame has released three albums, "Ineffable Desire", "Bitter Tears" and "Unreleased", the singles "Lunatic", "Play A Game With Me", "The Stars", "Dancing Angel", "Overture", "Game Of Love", "For So Long", "Embrace" and "Melancholia", as well as "Improvisations" (vocals and violin), "The Call" (violin) and "Lament" (violin). ... more

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