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Bitter Tears

by Ella Blame

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1.
Cyberlover 03:15
You’re shoveling tons of bits and bytes Through fiberglass lines and copper wires, Downloading hundreds of beauties’ pictures, Restless, being driven by desires. For you, real life begins behind that screen, Through which you try to peek outside yourself, But, as every night, you’re alone on the scene, Hunting for that imaginary woman of your dream, dream. Eager to see if your ad was answered, That you have placed the evening before, Telling you’re honest and good-looking, You’re trying to retrieve e-mail once more. The world news flicker flashy on TV, Muted politician and celebrity. Canned lager beer evaporates since hours, Overflowing ashtray, withered flowers, flowers. Flowers, flowers. Cyberlover, your dreams won’t ever come true, Ever come true! You spend eons in chat rooms each night, Hoping to find a woman who’s no fake, Later, you’re lying on your bed awake, Feeling something around your heart too tight. After having typed the story of your life, The other one who seemed to share your thoughts, Finally admitted that he was male, And going to bed, expected by his wife, wife. Cyberlover!
2.
Perfect Man 05:23
Now's the time that my dream comes true, I'll experience happiness I never knew. Superior feelings and true understanding, A perfect existence with the perfect man. Soon you'll be perfect, I can barely await it. Just a few seconds Till you're reactivated. Soon you'll be perfect, I can barely await it. Then my own feelings Are reciprocated. You know what I want and I know what you need, I'm perfect for you, you're perfect for me. You know what I want and I know what you need, I'm perfect for you, you're perfect for me. Soon you'll be perfect, I can barely await it. Just a few seconds Till you're reactivated. Soon you'll be perfect, I can barely await it. Then my own feelings Are reciprocated. Now's the time that my dream comes true, I'll experience happiness I never knew. Superior feelings and true understanding, A perfect existence with the perfect man. Soon you'll be perfect, I can barely await it. Just a few seconds Till you're reactivated. Soon you'll be perfect, I can barely await it. Then my own feelings Are reciprocated. Soon you'll be perfect, I can barely await it. Then my own feelings Are reciprocated.
3.
If I Could 03:21
If I could die in your arms, I would die at once. There's so much we went through. But no chance, But no chance, But no chance To live with you. But no chance... I remember the beginning But it's long ago. Always crying, always laughing, Until I said, Until I said "NO". Until I said, Until I said... If I could die in your arms, I would die at once. There's so much we went through. But no chance, But no chance To live with you. If I could die in your arms, I would die at once, I would die at once.
4.
Incurable 04:00
Incurable, you are incurable. Incurable, you are incurable. Incurable, you are incurable. Incurable, you are incurable, Don't love me that much. Incurable, you are incurable, I'll never give you a touch. Incurable, you are incurable, I'm afraid of this fanatic love. Incurable, you are incurable, Believe me, I will treat you rough. You are incurable, incurable, incurable, Don't love me that much. You are incurable, incurable, I'll never give you a touch. You are incurable, incurable, I'm afraid of this fanatic love. Incurable, you are incurable, Believe me, I will treat you rough. Are you incurable, Or is there any hope? Are you incurable, Or is there any hope? Are you incurable, Or is there any hope? Are you incurable? Incurable, incurable. Don't love me that much. I'll never give you a touch. I'm afraid of this fanatic love. Believe me, I will treat you rough, rough, rough, rough.
5.
Life is like a slippery slope. Some day you think you reached the top, Then you fall down, there is no rope To hold you and to make you stop. There was that day when you stretched out your hands, I didn't think and held them tight. You pulled me up into wonderful lands, We reached the top and loved the height. Sometimes there is darkness, Sometimes there is hope But I never will give up To climb the slippery slope. Sometimes there is darkness, Sometimes there is hope But I never will give up To climb the slippery slope. But then I fell down and you disappeared, All came so quickly, it was really weird. Now I'm alone, in front of the slope. To see you again, this is my hope. I even don't know if you really exist, Still I can see you behind dark blue mist. To reach for you in vain makes me mope And life, I know, is like a slippery slope. Sometimes there is darkness, Sometimes there is hope But I never will give up To climb the slippery slope. Sometimes there is darkness, Sometimes there is hope But I never will give up To climb the slippery slope. I even don't know if you really exist, Still I can see you behind dark blue mist. To reach for you in vain makes me mope And life, I know, is like a slippery slope. Sometimes there is darkness, Sometimes there is hope But I never will give up To climb the slippery slope. Sometimes there is darkness, Sometimes there is hope But I never will give up To climb the slippery slope.
6.
I feel a thousand kisses, everywhere. I feel a thousand kisses, everywhere. I'm lying in the sand and close my eyes. In my dreams, we are traveling through depths and heights. There is music and a colorful carousel With a coach pulled by two horses, surrounded by mysteries. The music's rhythm is moving our bodies. I feel a thousand kisses, everywhere. That's too wonderful to bear, To bear, to bear. Come, let us move along! We are lying in the grass in the middle of a glade. The grass is glimmering in every color, And it's so smooth that I believe to hover. The rhythm of the wind moving the crowns of the trees, This is the rhythm of our bodies. I feel a thousand kisses, everywhere. That's too wonderful to bear, To bear, to bear. Come, let us move along! We are lying in the water, in the middle of a cave Which is glimmering in blue and green, a little enclave. And the water is so warm and smooth, I feel so safe. The rhythm of the water, which is touching the cliffs, Is like the rhythm of our bodies. I feel a thousand kisses, everywhere. That's too wonderful to bear, To bear, to bear. Come, let us move along!
7.
Bitter Tears 04:26
When I woke up that morning, it was a day, A day like so many others. I never thought to meet you when walking Through this city where everything bothers. I perceived you, and stopped, and closed my eyes. I just learned to forget you forever. I just said "Hello" and tried to be nice, Then I thought: "Forever is never, Forever is never". Then I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to feel like it began. And I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to kiss the last kiss, my man. Then I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to feel like it began. And I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to kiss the last kiss, my man. I didn't turn around, didn't stop, barely felt, Just hated the salty taste of my tears. Didn't think or remember, it never was real, Just hated this special fear of my fears. But you were close, I didn't know what to say, I turned around and pushed you away. You held me tight, I could feel your tears Dropping slowly on my face, bitter was their taste. Then I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to feel like it began. And I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to kiss the last kiss, my man. Then I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to feel like it began. And I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to kiss the last kiss, my man. Then I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to feel like it began. And I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran, Never again want to kiss the last kiss, my man.
8.
Foldback 02:48
Foldback, foldback, Foldback, foldback. Foldback, foldback, Foldback, foldback. I can see you, although you’re not yet here. I hear you without you having said a word. A shiver runs over my neck. My time is folded back. Back. My time is folded back. Back. My time is folded back. My time is just one of a zillion times, Zillion times. My realities are changing continuously. Do you believe that you really exist? Perhaps all this is only a game, A game filled with cruelty and love. And you and I are that game’s only pieces. Pieces, only pieces. Pieces, only pieces. Pieces. What’s time? Is it a measure? A dream? I don’t know, I wish I could scream, scream. However, I’m muted because sound Cannot originate and flutter around When time is folded back.
9.
While I'm lying asleep in my bed. I know that I dream, that's why I don't scream. My flight carries me through the night. I feel as if I were traveling on a laser beam, Traveling on a laser beam, Traveling on a laser beam. From here to there and everywhere From here to there and everywhere Takes me a snap of a finger, my eyes gleam. Let's hope that this journey will be everlasting, If not, I'll dream of a big bomb blasting, A big bomb blasting, A big bomb blasting. Folks, be quiet, I'm just dreaming, You won't suffer anything. I'm mad, I'm mad Because I'm flying while lying in my bed, Because I'm flying while lying, while lying while lying, while lying, while lying. Folks, be quiet, I'm just dreaming, You won't suffer anything. I'm mad, I'm mad Because I'm flying while lying in my bed, Because I'm flying while lying, while lying while lying, while lying, while lying.
10.
Bit For Bit 04:24
I can't sleep 'cause you've killed my soul. To feel this pain Was never my goal. My heart is beating As fast as it can. Cannot believe That you're not the right man. I never planned To fall in love with you, guy. I never thought That it was only a lie. I remember your eyes When they were looking into mine. It's not long ago, I can still see them shine, See them shine, See them shine, Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling, Killing me bit for bit. Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling, Killing me bit for bit. I can't sleep 'cause you've killed my soul. To feel this pain Was never my goal. My heart is beating As fast as it can. Cannot believe That you're not the right man. Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling, Killing me bit for bit. Don't treat me like that 'cause I can't stand it. There is this feeling, Killing me bit for bit. There is a hope And it’s only a dream But then I wake up And I start to scream. There is a hope And it’s only a dream But then I wake up…
11.
Hymn Of Goodbye, That’s how you called it When you listened to this music The first time. Hymn of Goodbye That’s what it will be Forever Since you are not here Anymore. I will always miss you Because I loved you. I could not help you And it took forever Until I understood That this was the right time For you To go.

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Ella Blame is one of the most difficult to define artists I’ve listened to in a while. Just when you think you’re flying on a magic carpet you’re in that Jamiroquai video where the floor moves; halfway between a silvery Christmas jingle and a snowy coke dream. Whimsical as all hell, Blame’s Bitter Tears album is an over-the-rainbow collection of electronic and ambient tracks bordering on the psychedelic and the ethereal. With a handful of international collaborators, the album has a variety of sounds and instruments ranging from Indian flutes to Celtic folk all generously sprinkled in Blame’s pixie dust.– Alexandra Kain, Dig This Real, Issue 14

Imagine a cross between Laurie Anderson and Bjork and you’re not far from the voice of Ella Blame… Siouxsie Sioux and Happy Rhodes are others who come to mind, although Blame is difficult to pin down… Not quite goth, not a cabaret vamp, but somewhere in between. -- Mark Newman, Progression Magazine, Issue 55

"Bitter Tears" has 11 songs and each and everyone of them can easily be your most favorite one. Listening to Ella is like being in a big mansion, each song opens up the door to a different room... with different colors, different decorations, different time frames. By the time the CD is over you ask yourself "Where was I just now?" ... that is if you think you are back... -- Hande Burdg, TheProgFiles

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released May 22, 2008

Album Credits: Ella Blame, Shinji Imai, Michael D. Temple, Kilian Thöns, Tushar Parte, Gary Palama, T.C., Karin Hell

Mixed and mastered by Ella Blame, Michael D. Temple (Slippery Slope) and Kilian Thöns (Hymn Of Goodbye)

Produced by Ella Blame

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To date, Ella Blame has released three albums, "Ineffable Desire", "Bitter Tears" and "Unreleased", the singles "Lunatic", "Play A Game With Me", "The Stars", "Dancing Angel", "Overture", "Game Of Love", "For So Long", "Embrace" and "Melancholia", as well as "Improvisations" (vocals and violin), "The Call" (violin) and "Lament" (violin). ... more

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